Stuck

As I sit here and think of how the past two months have gone, I start to wonder to myself "What is going on?" "Who have I become?" .  As I ask myself these questions I begin to get emotional and realize that this isn't how I want things to be. Don't get me wrong I love my life and how it is now but there are things in which I am confused about! There are many feelings and emotions going on in me at the moment and don't get me wrong I still do love and care for him but I think this is what is really best for the two of us at the moment! It still doesn't justify the reason for what I've gotten myself into. I find myself in a situation that I can't seem to find a way out of.  I began to think of it as just whatever but now that time has passed it has grown into more as just a whatever situation. I have become to realize that there are some "feelings" now involved, but which one to pick. The answer does seem to be clear for some and regardless of how many times they may tell me I can't seem to do the right thing! I guess fear and feelings do come in to interfere with the right thing, fear of getting hurt and hurt someone else besides me but if I do continue more then one will get hurt including myself. So i do believe I am stuck. Sigh life will still go on regardless of what I choose to do it's all on when I choose to do it!